It has been quite the roller coaster ride of waiting and stress leading up to our three month old daughter's open heart surgery. Yet after a couple of cancellations due to a lack of space in the pediatric I.C.U., Emma finally had her much needed operation on Tuesday March 18th. Since then, the doctors in charge of her recovery have been very happy with her progress and it looks as though we may be headed home in a few days.Looking back, now that we are on the other side of the surgery, I have been amazed to see how God has planned/used even our weeks of waiting in the hospital to connect us with certain people and different experiences. Furthermore, I am so grateful for all of the care Emma has received through the many nurses and doctors at the U of A hospital. It is truly an amazing medical resource that we have free and open access to here in Edmonton, something that most people in most other countries simply do not have.
This leads to a very important theological question that should be asked and that can be summed up in two very simple words. Why me? Why should my family have this kind of care and attention and not millions of others around the world? We certainly don't deserve it any more than the next family. In fact, if I were to stop and think about all of the different circumstances and blessings in my life, my upbringing, my schooling, my family and health, all of this, everything that I enjoy in this world and every single day that I'm given, they are all ultimately a result of God's providence and grace. What do I mean by this? In his article entitled "The Providence of God" Loraine Boettner explains it like this:
God determines when, where, and under what circumstances, each individual of our race shall be born, live, and die, whether it shall be male or female, white or black, wise or foolish. God is no less sovereign in the distribution of His favors. He does what He will with His own. To some He gives riches, to others honor, to others health, to others certain talents for music, oratory, art, finance, statesmanship, etc. Others are poor, unknown, born in dishonor, the victims of disease, and live lives of wretchedness. Some are placed in Christian lands where they receive all the benefits of the Gospel; others live and die in the darkness of heathenism. Some are brought through faith unto salvation; others are left to perish in unbelief. And to a very large extent these external things, which are not the result of individual choice, decide the person's life course and eternal destiny. Both Scripture and every day experience teach us that God gives to some what He withholds from others. If it be asked why He does this, or why he does not save all, the only available answer is found in the words of the Lord Jesus, 'Yea, Father, for so it was wellpleasing in thy sight.' Only the Scripture doctrine of the fall and redemption will give us any light on what we see about us.
It is to be remembered that those who receive these gifts, whether spiritual or temporal, receive them through pure grace, while in regard to the others God simply withholds those gifts which He was under no obligation to bestow. Nations, as well as individuals, are thus in the hands of God, who appoints the bounds of their habitation, and controls their destiny.He controls them as absolutely as a man controls a rod or a staff. They are in His hands, and He employs them to accomplish His purposes. He breaks them in pieces as a potter's vessel, or He exalts them to greatness, according to His good pleasure. He gives peace and fruitful seasons, property and happiness, or He sends the desolations of war, famine, drought and pestilence. All of these things are of His disposing, and are designed for intelligent ends under His universal providence. God is no mere spectator of the universe He has made, but is everywhere present and active, the all-sustaining ground, and all-governing power of all that is.
The point is that we should never take things like our health, our family, the country we live in , the hospitals we have or even the food we eat for granted, they are all gifts of God's grace. In the end, we desperately need to be reminded of this truth, as a means of thankfulness, dependence and assurance. Everyday we are busy making our plans for things like surgery, and for our work, school and family, but it is God who sovereignly governs this universe we live in, not us. As it says in Proverbs 16:9 "The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps." And so not only do I thank God for blessing us with a beautiful baby girl but I also praise Him for all of the care and resources we have access to.
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